post-depression speech

its my fault.. i shouldnt have done something when im aware it will make my gf unhappy.. i get jealous easily and most of the time i believe is she unintentional de... sometimes just wanna 'pay back'.. now come to think of it... i really very wat la.. and.. not worth it. waste of time..

if i know will get mistaken as something more serious like 'the girl dun wan me den i go back to her'.. i surely wun let it happen.. its really helpless when u have to explain urself.. but u cant find proof.. den u have to depend solely on how much is her trust.. and how well u're able to convince with words and actions.. words doesnt have much effect.. will be condemned as sweet talk or excuses.. actions is only slightly better.. if i ever tell wat i do on the bus.. u all surely laugh like mad.. u just have to keep trying until ur feelings can reach her..
sometimes jus wanna tell her to tear apart my brain and see wats inside..

ive not announced the blog yet.. i hope one day she and i will be laughing together at this post..
and to the man im forever jealous of.. if u ever get the chance to read this.. i realised once again.. with more strength this time.. that it does not matter what u think of me or wats under ur sleeve(sorry.. but..), most impt is u're extremely good to her. if im her.. people treat me very well i also proud to be nice back de.. so i can understand..
waitwait.. if got something under sleeve hor.. it matters.. cos.. i will have to do more work to counter!!

er hmm.. to someone..
*bad-mouthing isnt good for health.. bad breath, and will retribution de hor... to do it so naturally/indirectly, uve got brains.. jus move on la..

coca cola promoter

yesterday was my first day at shop & save as a promoter. the place is at pasir ris central, 10 mins walk from my house.. i've worked there before 3 years ago as a cashier, that time was waiting to enter poly.. and its used to be called G'Value. time flies, only one of the student colleagues still working as part-time. for these 10 days, i will be promoting coca-cola for chinese new year... not only coca cola lah.. coca cola bought over F&N, heaven & earth and seasons also under coke.. i was given a bright red coca cola tshirt, and L size.. no choice.. i think my head will look veli small..

very unlucky.. kena outdoor tentage, envy those posted to ntuc.. is indoor de.. there are fans, but only blowing hot air!! nvm, got chance to cui aircon.. cos im also supposed to topup the shelfs in the supermaket..
mm actually working there saves me transport cost.. but the pay sux la.. 4.80 onli..
theres 2 giant posters of zoe tay and fann wong accompany me.. Ren Yue abalone VS Tian Liang abalone.. LOL.. one sun one moon.. and also tonnes of xiang yun and her mother appearing everywhere! alamak

got socialise with other promoters and cashiers in tentage.. around 8 plus, the merchandiser from coca cola come spot check me.. lol.. pretend customer test me. phew.. den tell me lots of rules. when in uniform, go coffeeshop order drink cannot order rival company de.. if higher rank see me.. can sack on spot.. lol etc etc.. and even if buying mineral water can only drink ice mountain..

hahaa.. clicked esp well with the YEOS promoter.. sometimes he even help me promote my drinks lol.. who cares abt rival company.. direct competitor also can become friends.. duo yi ge peng you hao guo duo yi ge di ren rite.. he very hardworking one.. eager to promote and will shout to make ppl come to him.. while my style is fold hands and stand from dist.. and let customers initiate.. HAHAA! personality quite opposite.. and he got 1 habit.. keep singing songs.. esp linkin park! wah.. lao?